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feels just like mirage
just here to share thoughts that’s bold for me to say and even early, but i’ve always looked at some of the things i’ve already done as goals. despite the size of this goal, this year felt like it’s not what i’m looking for, or it’s not as i expected. exactly like a mirage: every time i reach it, it disappears.
honestly, right now i don’t know what my goals are or how they should be. i know i want to make films, but i hope it will be an exciting journey, including getting out of the one-man show trap mentioned below. still feels like a mirage.
DIY coffee table
I’ve been wanting this coffee table in my house .. it’s made of half inch steel pipes, with wheels, and 2x 3inch thick wood counters. It’s insane how it turned out. So proud of myself.
taking landscape photographs
taking landscape photographs feels right again. had these moments when i was in palestine visiting my family and was just thinking of these views as something i grew up with, not knowing how beautiful they are.
i would love to have a film shot here in Sir, where i spent my first 18 years of my life.
the one-man show trap
that’s me, in the middle of the one-man show trap. seven years of work experience and 90% of the projects i did by myself, only working with very few people.
i’m trapped because i taught myself a lot of skills in video production. i can direct, shoot, edit, and color a video that a client would be happy with. but the budget doesn’t cover the 7 to 12 crew members i would thrive to invite.
with the very few projects where i’ve worked as a cinematographer only, i found it very inspiring. after these years i’m fighting to get out of this trap, even if it costs me getting paid less or having to deal with surprises.